Scrapbook Ninety Three…




Renelle Jacobson

As the days of autumn approach each of us must know that our hour glass is slowly getting bottom heavy. Hopefully, as each crystal of sand drops, it takes with it the story of a fruitful life, full of grateful memories and dreams fulfilled.

And so it was with Renelle Jacobson. Three days ago she ran out of sand and she fell to an evil malady that made her suffer for many years. She was not fooled by what she knew was inevitable, and I know she left with a smile on her face. She lived a full life during her few short years, and our lives are suddenly poorer. I especially feel the loss. f

73 thoughts on “Scrapbook Ninety Three…

  1. Newer folks on this blog may be unaware that back in January the fine people on the search donated more than $28,000 to help Renelle pay for her cancer treatments and to give her peace of mind. At that point it looked like she might survive. We were all hopeful.

    When the media asked me how much money we hoped to raise for Renelle I told them that I was hoping for $8,000. I was being optimistic.
    $28,000 was not even fathomable.

    Forrest offered up a wonderful raffle prize and off we went holding a raffle in which all that money was raised by selling tickets. It was a very special time for searchers. We came help Renelle in her fight.

    If you’d like to read the original story and Renelle’s sweet thank-you note after she received the check, look here:

    Renelle was also Toby Younis’ first interview for his Gypsy Kiss podcasts. You can find it here:

    She was young and sweet and a fighter and a do-gooder and an adventurer..
    and a searcher…like us..
    I miss her presence in our world.

    Goodnight Renelle-

    • Man that really sucks. I received a personal thank you email from her which was such a greatful person and her respect to strangers coming together to help. I never met her but her story inspired me to want to help. I never imagine that a stranger would inspire me but she did. She was faced with a evil dark disease that doesn’t care about race, religion, sex or age. I’m atheist but only to religion but I believe our bodies has a energy that travels and I hope hers is traveling to a secret place that only two people know where it is. To the new people searching, your not looking for the chest but instead trying to find yourself.

  2. Renelle … may you rest in the arms of angels, may God hold you forever in the palm of God’s hand. You were sweet, generous with your story, and touched all of us in very profound, unique ways. Your presence will remain with all of us. You were the treasure, Renelle … you were our treasure …. elizabeth

  3. I had read about Renelle, and the raffle, after the fact. It was a wonderful thing that was done with the raffle…perhaps it had added those last few grains of lovely sand.
    My brothers wife also had the same disease from age 21 to just 3 days before’s a tough fight, for everyone. May peace be with her family, and may she be chasing her dreams from above…

  4. The Grace of God will carry you to Paradise for the Lord God is a God full of mercy. Your treasures in His Glory will be far exceeded more than any here in this worldly existence. I say this with a heavy heart and condolences to ALL that knew this beautiful creation of God.

  5. It was with a heavy heart that I read of Renelle’s passing this morning. She was a lovely, bright, happy, generous and courageous soul who enriched our lives just by her presence. She will be sorely missed by her family and friends and all who knew her, even by those of us who only met her through this site. She was such a fighter and an inspiration to all.

    Renelle, Rest in Peace.

  6. That’s so sad. I’m so sorry to hear that. I was there at the raffle event when Forrest and Ali MacGraw read her sweet letter. She’s was a strong and adventuresome spirit.

  7. Do not stand at my grave and weep
    I am not there; I do not sleep.
    I am a thousand winds that blow,
    I am the diamond glints on snow,
    I am the sun on ripened grain,
    I am the gentle autumn rain.
    When you awaken in the morning’s hush
    I am the swift uplifting rush
    Of quiet birds in circled flight.
    I am the soft stars that shine at night.
    Do not stand at my grave and cry,
    I am not there; I did not die.

    By Mary Elizabeth Frye

  8. My heart is heavy – but Renelle – I will take a part of you with me on my journey –
    my prayers are for your family through this hard time.

  9. Peace be with you Renelle. To the family we send you the highest form of love and peace as you say good bye to Angel Renelle. The TTOTC community will miss her immeasurably.

    We are 41 year old sisters on this chase so I promise to remember how bravely you lived as I go forward on the journey.

  10. May God be with her family during this time. How thoughtful it was for Forrest and Dal to help with her expense with selling raffle tickets on her behalf. Forrest she will set on the cloud and look down on all of us isn’t that right. She is in a special place 🙂

  11. Renelle, May your beautiful spirit soar over the mountains you loved. May your family and friends find peace as their hearts remember the joy you brought others. God bless.

  12. All of us rich/poor fat/short white/black ugly/beautiful will pass through that door. The door of death equalizes us all. There probably isn’t a single person on this planet alive born in the year 1900, everyone has passed on…and that time will come for every single one of us too. Rest in peace Renelle.

  13. I am certain that the love you raised at the fundraiser is greater than any treasure available. It sounds like many people were touched by her beautiful spirit and because of that, she is never truly gone. Peace and wonderful memories to all her family and friends.

  14. Oh my…I am so sorry to hear this news….actually words can’t express…Thank you for letting us know….I know she was a very special lady. Peace to Renelle. I think we are all connected somehow…peace to everyone….

  15. On the big treasure hunt in the sky, but she has all the treasure that she wants now and I’m certain is still having adventures and is in no more pain. God bless her and her family and all of us hunters here.

  16. Sadly we all say farewell to a true fighter. The thrill of the chase was the pursuit of life in it’s fullest for Renelle. My deep condolences to her family and her close friends.

  17. Prayers to the family of Renelle I never met Renelle but her story sparked us all. And I’m gonna dedicate my search to Renelle maybe we will find it together.

  18. She shared with us a piece of her, so that in her passing she can still carry on through us.

    My families thoughts and prayers are with her family.

  19. F it is difficult not to feel the painfull loss of association, but the joy that friendship happened at all is a blessing. Comforting is the knowledge that Renelle is in the tender care of a loving Father.

  20. Life is so short, a blink of an eye in the web of life. My condolences to those that felt her spirit. I personally think, thanks to Mr. Fenn, in this context only of the chase, allowed her to find humanity when maybe her spirituality was in question. WHY ME, but through Mr. Fenn’ , and passion, life IS a Journey.

    I have nothing else to say about this.

  21. so sorry to hear about renelle,may God help her family through this hard time.forrest I know this touches you real bad,as you got a chance to meet this wonderful young lady.but you gave her a gift,she never forgot.a ride in a helicopter,so she could see such beauty.if you go before me,you will never be forgotten either.lots of people loved renelle and lots of people love you.when people we know go on to the next life,we never forget them.and is really hard for us all to get over things like this.Only God can help us.It took me 6 years to get over my daughter passing.and I’ll always miss her.

  22. I am so sorry to hear of our friend. She had a wonderful yet short Journey. Filled with adventure that gave her hope and fun in her tough time. Rest in Peace, my sister treasure seeker. God Bless.

  23. The Sleep
    Elizabeth Barrett Browning

    OF all the thoughts of God that are
    Borne inward into souls afar,
    Along the Psalmist’s music deep,
    Now tell me if that any is
    For gift or grace surpassing this—
    “He giveth His beloved, sleep”?

    What would we give to our beloved?
    The hero’s heart to be unmoved,
    The poet’s star-tun’d harp to sweep,
    The patriot’s voice to teach and rouse,
    The monarch’s crown to light the brows?—
    He giveth His beloved, sleep.

    What do we give to our beloved?
    A little faith all undisproved,
    A little dust to overweep,
    And bitter memories to make
    The whole earth blasted for our sake:
    He giveth His beloved, sleep.

    “Sleep soft, beloved!” we sometimes say
    Who have no tune to charm away
    Sad dreams that through the eyelids creep:
    But never doleful dream again
    Shall break the happy slumber when
    He giveth His beloved, sleep.

    O earth, so full of dreary noises!
    O men, with wailing in your voices!
    O delved gold, the wailers heap!
    O strife, O curse, that o’er it fall!
    God strikes a silence through you all,
    And giveth His beloved, sleep.

    His dews drop mutely on the hill,
    His cloud above it saileth still,
    Though on its slope men sow and reap:
    More softly than the dew is shed,
    Or cloud is floated overhead,
    He giveth His beloved, sleep.

    Ay, men may wonder while they scan
    A living, thinking, feeling man
    Confirm’d in such a rest to keep;
    But angels say, and through the word
    I think their happy smile is heard—
    “He giveth His beloved, sleep.”

    For me, my heart that erst did go
    Most like a tired child at a show,
    That sees through tears the mummers leap,
    Would now its wearied vision close,
    Would childlike on His love repose
    Who giveth His beloved, sleep.

    And friends, dear friends, when it shall be
    That this low breath is gone from me,
    And round my bier ye come to weep,
    Let One, most loving of you all,
    Say, “Not a tear must o’er her fall!
    He giveth His beloved, sleep.”

  24. Renelle’s story was very inspiring. I participated in the raffle not for the prize, but for the cause. She was a beautiful and wonderful person who displayed the best qualities, and I admired her. She was very brave, and I am glad that she had the “Chase” to keep her interest and to expand her base of friends and family. We all became part of her family. I too received a personal thank you email from her and it made me feel so good. I am very sad to hear of her passing, but I am a religious man and believe that she is in a better place. May God bless her and provide comfort to her family and friends.

  25. Renelle,

    I never met you personally, but reading all these farewells I’ve come to know you a little better.

    Usually the saying goes “you’re in good hands” but this time around, all it can be said is “you’re in good hearts” and that means that you’ll be around for a long while.
    Please don’t be too concerned for your family and friends, well… maybe a little in the beginning, but they’ll be all right with the realization that you are still around as long as they keep you in their hearts and souls.
    A good friend, Dr. Empathy told me that.

    So, stay for a while longer because there are a lot of people giving you the shelter of their loving hearts… and please say hello to Ligia… she’s still around as well.
    I have a strong feeling that you’ll become good friends… you’re too much alike for that not to happen; unfortunately you had a little too much in common.

    (when you get to talk, please restrain yourselves from laughing too loud, yes I can see it coming; now I’m having second thoughts about this whole meeting, you’re going to cause a ruckus, aren’t you?)

  26. Your smile radiates a joy for life brighter than any gloom could exist. You inspire me Renelle in this life, may you rest in peace sweetie.

  27. The raffle for Renelle… since then I had not heard much about her doings. It is saddening to hear when another courageous soul passes. I have a feeling Renelle’s spirit will remain amongst us for a good long time. So long Soldier…

  28. Heartfelt prayers for your family Renelle. Your bravery and joy were an example to others. May the joys of Heaven greet you warmly.

  29. I believe Renelle touch many hearts with her stamina and perseverance and to go for your dreams no matter what obstacles may be in your way. She enjoyed being a searcher and we have enjoy her as a partner. God speed Renelle …Thankyou

  30. I was fortunate enough to talk to Renelle a few times and she definitely was a an inspiration to me in the way she looked at life. I don’t know if that was due to the position she was in, but it’s something I’ve admired and try to learn from.

    While I don’t believe in some things…I like the romantic whimsy of feeling that maybe now Forrest isn’t the only one who can keep his secret where 😉

  31. And the greatest of these is LOVE. (1 Corinthians 13:13) It was obvious that Renelle knew this. Her life on earth is over but her HEAVENLY life has so much more to be.

  32. My thoughts and prayers are with Renelle`s family and friends.

    Cancer is such an ugly dark disease. We lost my boyfriends mother to cancer two weeks ago. I try so hard to find good in any situation…although cancer is a tough one because there is so much struggle and pain. The light we found was in the time we spent with our beloved. Time that we may not have spent, words that might not have been spoken if mom had been taken in another way.She was surrounded by what she loved the most when she left..her family.

  33. Words can not express my deepest sympathy for the family of Renelle.
    With family, friends and this community of fellow searchers in her life, she found a treasure worth more than gold. God speed Renelle, may you soar upon the wings of eagles.

  34. Deepest sympathy goes out to Renelle’s family at this time. God has her in his arms now and there is no more pain and painful treatments ANYMORE!! God Bless her she was a sweet inspiration to all that knew her and she showed all how to stand tall, overcome, and to love nature and life in general!! She will be missed and thought of often. She is with the Angels now and looking down over the searchers still in the chase and smiling and watching over us . Good Night and Good Rest from all of your ills Miss Renelle You are our “INSPIRATION”!! Sweet Sleep and A Heavenly Home are your reward for just being you. God Bless and Keep your family at this time and always. MS. Girl

  35. Mr. Fenn, I am so very sorry for the loss of your dear friend. I am now dismayed that I missed the raffle opportunity to help Renelle. I was out of the chase for about 6 months and must have missed it. Is there a fund for her children?,family? or perhaps a charity that the family has requested supporting? Again, so very sorry to hear of your loss and will be praying for Renelle’s family and yourself.

    grace and peace

    • Like Windsurfer, I joined Dal’s blog after the raffle as well, but would love the opportunity to send a gift to her family or to a designated charity in memorium.

  36. My memory of Renelle

    Renelle’s bravery in the face of such odds. I was truly inspired by her interest in the quest. Thanks Forrest and Dal for sharing her with me. I received a memo from her in which she thanked me for the aid and she was cheerful still in the face of such evil. I wish I could have done more.
    I am so saddened. Now she is at peace.

  37. I write this through tears and with a heavy heart…and I’m struggling to come up with the right words to express my grief upon learning of Renelle’s passing. Through Forrest’s wonderful words, we, the TTOTC community, had the privilege of meeting Renelle and getting to know her during her last year of her courageous fight with this horrible disease…her adventurous spirit will never be forgotten and is a part of my soul…as is Forrest with his words of inspiration and this wonderful journey he has created. My condolences to Renelle’s family and friends and to Forrest who also lost a bff…RIP, Renelle…we are so sad that you have left us.

  38. I am standing by the seashore.
    A ship at my side spreads her white sails to the morning breeze
    and starts for the blue ocean.
    She is an object of beauty and strength,
    and I stand and watch
    until at last she hangs like a speck of white cloud
    just where the sun and sky come down to mingle with each other.

    Then someone at my side says, ‘There she goes!
    Gone where? Gone from my sight – that is all.

    She is just as large in mast and hull and spar
    as she was when she left my side
    and just as able to bear her load of living freight
    to the places of destination.
    Her diminished size is in me, not in her.

    And just at the moment when someone at my side says,
    ‘There she goes! ‘ ,
    there are other eyes watching her coming,
    and other voices ready to take up the glad shout :
    ‘Here she comes!’

  39. I am sorry to hear of Renelle’s passing. She was such a beautiful soul. We are blessed to have heard her story and I hope her memory will live on.

  40. You and Mr. Fenn have to be proud that you made her life richer and fuller by the fact that you cared and made a tremendous contribution to her life and those of others touched by this disease. Your efforts to raise funds, gave courage and hope. All that search for the treasure are blessed by the fact that the books raise money to help. It is all good. Her sands ran to the bottom of the glass but the glass is turned and it is someone else’s turn to be touched by the awesome team of horse powered (trucks) of Fenn and Dal. Super heroes in cowboy hats and well worn boots following the code and traditions. Thank you. We are sorry she has left us and know her spirit will live on.

  41. Just wanted to remind everyone that during this ” Chase ” let us not forget the ones who walked this path with us. In my mind Renelle will never be an ” asterisk ” in a book that is never written. She has showed us all how close this ” Online ” family has become, even though many of searchers have never met. In our quest for whatever we seek , let us not lose who we really are. Renelle is my online Soldier and this is my ” Salute to a warrior “. ( R.I.P Renelle )

  42. Thinking of you today, Renelle. I did not know you, but am touched by your challenges. I hope you are running around smiling upon us!

  43. With the stroke of the painters brush upon the canvas of white, color mixed and swirled brings beauty into this world. Each day by our actions we apply our own color to life, and how we mix with each other determines the beauty.
    Renelle’s color made the world around her beautiful and vibrant.
    May her color never fade with the age of time.

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